Personal Discovery

 5.75 mile run Sunday. I was awful at it, but I finished. It feels good to know that I could finish it. Granted I did do a little walking, baby steps I guess (no pun intended).  As hard as a run is, there’s nothing like feeling the sun on your back and to know at the end of the day that you challenged yourself. Where I'm at so far with the training: 

So I have to admit something. I’m having trouble deciding how deep to go with this blog. How much to reveal about me personally, and how far from fitness and health I should go. I think that’s another challenge with starting a blog- how much do you reveal and how true do you stay to who you are? One thing I have learned over the years with my writing is that it’s always better the more personal I get. When I’m “real” about myself, what I want, and who I am, it can be felt in every word.

I guess I just answered my own question: more of me in my writing of these entries. The next question: where do I start? Do I start with my mental struggles with body image? What it means to me to compete? How badly I want to be accepted and looked up to, but want so desperately to be an individual and feel so apart from everyone else in my life? How does this all tie into my fitness and health ventures? How are all of my choices and training helping me discover more about myself and helping me grow as an individual?

A few things to think about before the next time… I watched Divergent last night (again). It has become one of my new favorite movies. It isn't a great movie, and the acting isn't anything phenomenal, but I feel like I can really relate to the main character. It's somewhat hard to explain but I will try in another entry. Had trouble sleeping last night. Started waking up at 2am and couldn't fall back to sleep until 330am. Ended up oversleeping once I did- got up at 530-545 and only had time to make a smoothie for breakfast, get my things together and do a quick 30 minute walk.

It’s going to be a long day but I’m looking forward to the challenge and how all of it is helping me get one step closer to the type of lifestyle I want to live.

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."