Personal Growth

It's been a very challenging week in terms of remaining calm and not letting the negativity of others effect me. So rather than letting my mind focus on the things being said and done that would effect my day and my feelings, I've been trying to focus on the positive and how I'm going to improve my life and the lives of those that matter most to me. One of those things is getting out and enjoying the sunshine, and staying active. Yesterday I went for two runs- one in the morning totaling 2.38 miles, and the second I took Haley, our dog, to a local Regional Shoreline where she could run freely without having to be on leash.

 I was feeling pretty good physically, and I felt focused in getting my runs in amongst the many other things on the to-do list. Haley, on the other hand, was feeling great in the beginning of her jaunt but started to die out around 1-1.5 mile mark. She only ended up making about 2.5 miles before I was forced to a walk due to her excessive panting and she started just lying in whatever shady, cool spot she could find. Lazy bum. But I guess that is all our fault for not taking out more.


I really like running at this Shoreline because it's near the water and you feel so isolated. It's just you and the water. The ocean and the water has always been a place of peace for me- the sound and the smell. There's nothing quite like it (at least that I've experienced).

Despite the personal thing's going on, I'm feeling really optimistic about where my life is heading and the decisions I'm making. I feel very empowered and independent, without feeling alone and being stubborn about resisting all help. It has taken me a while, but I'm finally getting to a point where I am okay asking for help and delegating where I need it, and having realistic goals/expectations within a reasonable timeline.

I'm working with a friend of mine who competes in running and triathlon raises as a form of both fitness and fundraising, to put together a plan for the two of us for 2015 to act as fundraising tools for Synergia. I'm really excited about what this means for the company, its mission, and my life.

We're certainly looking for more individuals who want to incorporate races and exercise into a means  for fundraising for worthwhile non-profits. Please let me know. Myself aside, we have one other confirmed individual, and 2-3 others that have shown some interest.

Above and left are the three (technically 2) workouts. To the right is what my weight would be if I ate and exercised this way everyday for 5 weeks. 

Now here's the issue with focusing on weight- unless you're completely overweight it's completely unreasonable and unless you have a very firm grasp on yourself when it comes to not letting these numbers get to you, shouldn't be the main focus. It's incredibly important to remember that ultimately it's about how you feel, how efficiently your body moves and processes, and how you feel that you look. If you think you look and feel your best at 170 lbs then that's your weight. Your weight should be a side note- and not the deciding factor of your happiness. This is definitely something that I'm constantly struggling with, and is the exact reason why I don't allow myself to consistently step on a scale.

So, I guess there are two positive things that I have learned this week:

(1) "Be the Change you Wish to see in the World." has never been more true, and that includes how you respond to things and what you choose to let "consume" you.

(2) It's all about you feel about yourself, and how the people around you make you feel